How do you move on when the one you love is looking for the one HE loves?  Nothing makes sense except for what you feel.  You think it should be obvious to everyone involved.  Yet, the only one its obvious to is you.  He lives with me.  I have everything in common with him.  Yet due to society, our love is forbidden.  So he is trying to conform.  Me?  Im trying to give him what he wishes for which is release.  But yet, I see it in his eyes.  I feel it in his touch.  He loves me.  He is going to judge every girl he meets by the standands he has used in our relationship.  How is that fair to anyone else we bring in to our lives? Its not fair to the guy Im seeing.  Its not fair to the girls he's trying to spend time with.  We GET each other.  We speak without talking.  We GET each other's humor which no one else gets.  Are we doomed to spend our llives with others because no one will accept our relationship?  Or will we eventually find someone who will replace each other?  Ive spent my life living my life to other's standards.  I made a choice 2.5 years ago.  (I finally decided that I didnt care what anyone else said or thought.)  I was finally happy.  Whos choice is it anyway to make me happy other than mine?  I have always lived my life to make everyone else happy and comfortable.  Is that really how I am supposed to live?  Is it really my life or the rest of the world's?  I believe its mine.  I should be able to do what makes me happy so long as my choices alter  no one else's life.  Right?  Am I wrong??????  So please, someone explain.  Tell me why I have to sacrifice how I feel to make everyone else comfortable.  I dont feel its fair and I dont believe anymore that I should have to conform.